Yesterday

Last night I asked Sir if we could do some role play and he said yes.
He told me to go to the bathroom and shut the door and after while I heard scratching on the door and then I opened the door. Sir had a plastic gun and put it to my head and told me that nothing in the apartment was worth his while and so I would have to be his prize and I I better be worth his while.

Sir unzipped his pants and grabbed my hair and pushed me on his cock I deep throated him for awhile until he told me to stop and he also a couple of times was rough in my mouth. Then I asked Him would you please fuck my cunt Sir and he says you are a slut.

He then got behind me and fucked me hard with his cock for a few minutes and then told me to get on my back and started fucking me like that and still very hard until he came and I came hard also.

After that I asked Sir if I could use my wand for a little bit and he said yes but you still have to beg to cum and so for a few minutes I needed to cum and I asked Sir can I please cum and he said yes.
I did this a few times and after that I was done.

Sir asked me if I could give him a blow job again I guess it got him hot again watching me torment myself lol.

I started to suck him hard again and also ran my tongue hard up his cock and down and also Sir told me to pinch his chest and it did not take very long to cum again.

It was a good night and I needed that time with him and I love him more everyday.

This Morning

Before Sir left for work this morning he gave me instructions to care out before I went to work today.

He told me to use my smart- balls and also use my wand and text him to beg to cum after awhile and so I was using my wand and put the smart-balls up in my pussy.
I got wet while I was trying to find the smart-balls and they were way down at the bottom of our toy box lol.

So for a few mins with the wand and the smart-balls I needed to cum so I text him and said please Sir may I cum and about a min later he message back yes little one cum for me and I came very hard.

After that I got my dildo and used my wand some more and before long I needed to cum again and again I asked Sir if I could cum and he said yes cum .

Also Sir changed one of my rules I can use my wand whenever I want now but I can not cum unless I have his permission so I think this is more evil dang it lol

Sir also told me after I did what he told me to do He wanted me to post everything I did and so here is the post.

Better

Well I have been feeling better again and i am glad it sucks not being yourself and Sir was very worried about me. I was very down and did not feel like doing anything and I just wanted to stay in bed.

I have not felt this for a very long time and I just did not want to be this way and I did not even know why I was feeling this way. Sir tried seeing if there was some trigger that caused it and I said I dont know of anything and I was confused about it.

On Thursday I talked to some friends and started feeling better and when I came home Sir gave me a hug and said I am so happy to get my baby back because I was just not myself.

Sir and I have also had sex it has just been passionate sex instead of spanking and torment because Sir has been very tired and I was not myself for awhile and I hope real soon there with be spankings and such lol.

I promise that the next post will be more interesting and sorry not posting for awhile.

Giving Blow Jobs

Well a couple times this week i have given Sir blow jobs and it as been different than normal because Sir has grabbed my hair and pulled me all the way until I gagged a couple of times. I have been trying to get him farther down my throat with out gagging at all and little by little I have been getting him farther down my throat.

I really do like this a lot and he loves it too it drives him nuts and he cums more quickly, so if I want him to cum fast I deep throat him.
Always I have been liking he cum more also and swallowing it down that I can get greedy and want more and after he cums I keep sucking that it is so sensitive that he has to push me away. Lol

Sir can be very evil but sometimes in getting him back for being so evil I will do this and it drives him nuts and I keep sucking him until He can not stand it anymore and I just laugh and tell him see I can be evil also lol.

Yesterday I came home after working graveyard shift and got into bed to go to sleep and I was like hmmm do i want to give him a blow job or not I did this a couple times back and forth and i was like yeah i want to give him a blow job. Sir was not really awake when I was pondering about.

I then started to rub his cock to wake start to wake him up and then I got up and I wanted to rip the sheets off of him but instead I got between his legs and he said what little one and I said Sir can I suck your cock? He smiled at me and said yes and then i sucked him bobbing up and down and also deep throated Him.

After awhile Sir grabbed my hair again and pulled me up and down his cock making me gag more than normal but Loved ever bit of it.

Sir also while pulling my nipples while i was still sucking him started counting slowly to 5 and you no what that means I can cum after that and I cam while sucking him. When He was ready to cum he started counting again and at 5 he came in my mouth and i could not cum this time because I choked because he was a little to far in my mouth that I was not used to it.

I was a happy slut and he very happy also and told me I am such I good girl and I love it when He says i am a good girl.

Sorry it has been awhile since I posted I have been very tired because of work and I will try to get back in the swing of things to post more often I still think Sir needs to tell me I have to post 3 times a week at least.

Sir I also want to thank you for being good to me and love me more everyday.

Saturday Night

Well Saturday Sir and i went to a FlOG party and it was are first time and it was amazing. The ladies could have their nipples covered and just wear panties, so it was nice and comfortable.

It was interesting to watch people get spanked on the stage and hearing moans and hear the sounds of them getting spanked. My eyes were on the stage a lot and I really could not wait to get up on the stage and I was not nervous at all.

I also for the first time got to touch a woman’s breast and I did not realize how much it would turn me on and how amazing it was.

We were the last scene on stage for the night because at 12am is when the last scene could take place because we needed to be out of there by 1am.

Sir took my clothes off except my panties and I had something covering my breast and after that I got on the spanking horse with my ass in the air. Sir spanked me with His hand,belt, cane, and rope whip. After he spanked me for awhile he stopped for a few mins and ran the pinwheel on my welts I had from the cane and I do not know what it is but when He does that I am very sensitive
and I start wiggling all over the place.

After the scene Sir asked if I was ok and I said yes but instead I was not and Sir had to help me down because i was in subspace and he had to help me off stage and help me sit in a chair.

After everyone put everything away we left and went to and after party and man it was great and 4 woman had their breast hanging out including me which was amazing of how comfortable I was with it because there were like 25 people there.

One of the woman asked Sir to spank her and pick something out she never had felt on her ass before so Sir picked the rattan cane out and she lifted her skirt and Sir started to spank her.
It was hot seeing Sir spank another woman and seeing her moving everything he spanked her.

We he was done spanking her and it was awhile later she had her breast showing and she just looked so hot that I went up to her and said I have never kissed a woman before may we kiss and she said yes.

It was so hot that I got worked up for the rest of the night and more horny and also a few mins later she left my kiss her nipple which was very nice also.

When we left the party we came home and Sir stripped me down and was very rough with me kissing my pushing me hard against the wall and pulling my hair mmmm it was great.

After the kissing Sir told me to get on the bed and He slammed his cock in my pussy and fucked me hard for a few mins and Then pushed me on my back and started to fuck me hard again.
Sir let my cum as much as i needed to and then after a few mins we came together and it was yummy.

I will say it was a wonderful night and I can not wait to do it again.

Also I wanted to tell everyone that I am sorry I have not posted for awhile and I will try to get back in to posting more often again.

About my Husband and Bring my Dom also

Well I got touched by someones post yesterday that I feel I need to brag on my husband.

I love my husband very much and care about him deeply and I would not be what I am today without Him because he is the love of my life and completes me.

If we were not married I would not even know where I would be today and He is my friend and I feel a really great Dom.

I trust Him more than I ever have in my life it came to me this week about how much I trust him being my husband and Dom and that He knows what is best for me.

I love his sense of humor it took awhile to get but being married for 14 years I have caught on with a lot of it lol.

He is a gentleman to me and I can feel how deeply he cares about me and feel his love,which make me feel very safe and happy and content.

You see our marriage was not always like this because I had to come out of my shell and also get healed up from the abuse I got as a kid and I also did not realize that with the abuse it has made me stronger.

We are very honest with one another and do not keep things from each other and if something is bothering me I will come and tell him and the same with him.

We started this new fresh relationship with him being my Dom on September 21 of last you and it has molded me into a better person and I am very happy we decided to do this.

You know I feel that since I have come to trust him more this week and forever it with be easier to summit to him better and even more and I did not realize this thing with him denying me to cum for almost a week would change the way I feel about trusting him more.

He is a very carrying husband and Dom and really does not like to punish me either and he does give me chances to change my act before punishing me,which makes me feel good that he is not swift to punish.

What is also something is that with him being my Dom my self worth about myself has change and I do not think negative about myself,which is really amazing to me.

Well right now i can not think of anything more to say in this post but that this post came from my heart.

Sir i love you very much and Glad you are my husband and Dom and please keep up the good work.

Thank You for not being swift to punish me and i feel your love everyday and more everyday.

Today I Got to Cum :)

Today sir changed his mind and let me cum today because someone has our kids and He was off work today but I got tormented badly which was so yummy.

Sir told me today when he fucked me this morning before I knew I could cum today that I was going to be his slut today. I wanted to get my boss a car for his birthday so Sir had me dress in a black short skirt with no panties and a white Shirt that button down the front. Sir also had me wear a white lacy bra and had my unbutton the first button of it to wear you could see half way down my boobs.

I felt very slutty for him and notice I got some looks and stares but good stares

After lunch we went home and Sir had me use my wand and glass dildo for and hour and no cumming of course and I did ask Sir since the kids are not home can I cum today because you can torment me today.

Sir said even if you could cum today I would not tell you so i did not get my hopes up at all.

After the wand and glass didlo Sir took my out on our deck while clothed Sir took the wand and put it on my clit and left it there for a few minutes and Sir then said after the few minutes to cum.

Then Sir had me suck his cock until it got hard and then had me get on His dick while He was sitting on the couch and fucked me hard still clothed like I was man it was hot.

He told me today I want you to beg for me to cum and you will have to beg hard to cum. He told me this while He was fucking me.

After awhile Sir and I went to our room to finish more of the torment I got which was so hot and amazing. I was laying on the bed with the wand and glass didlo again and did that for a very long time.

While still using my wand Sir put clothes pins on my breast and nipples and while He was tormenting me with the dildo and wand for a few minutes when he knew I was very far into subspace. Sir started to count to 5 and said He was going to yank the clothes pins off and after he counted to 5 I knew I could cum also when He yanked the clothes pins off my nipples.
I had 3 clothes pins on each nipple and he yanked everyone of them after counting to 5 every single time.

Man it felt good because i was so high in subspace nothing I felt could Hurt me and it was so yummy and it even put me higher into subspace.

After awhile Sir then decided to use my glass dildo that has bubbles about 5 I believe but I could be mistaken. Sir used it in my pussy to get it really wet and when He knew it was wet enough. Sir then put the dildo at my asshole and when I came He slid one bubble up my ass.

Each time I came with the wand and while He was using another glass dildo in my pussy he would let me cum and then he would slide another bubble up my ass.

He did this until all of the bubbles were all in my ass he started to use the wand and glass dildo in my pussy and my ass and started pumping hard sometimes with them and I came very hard a lot of times.

Sir then took the glass dildo out and then started fucking me with his cock still having the glass didlo in my ass man it felt good.

He did this for a few minutes and had me cum also and then He got out and took the glass dildo out of my ass.

He then started fucking me with the glass dildo in my pussy again so hard I had to beg to cum and and when He let me cum I squirted so hard that I could have hit the ceiling.

You see I am a squirter and came cum has far as 7 feet so Sir had a towel that I hit so i would not hit so far and it got all over me and Sir. :0

I came so hard that my face turned red and damn it felt good and by the way the total torment was almost 3 hours.

I could hardly even move afterwards because I was so far in subspace that after I came so hard I started crying saying thank you Sir I needed this.

He just held me for a long time naked in the bed man it felt good and I was such a happy slut and he also told me I was His good slut.

After a couple hours in the subspace on a sad note I had someone tell me I really have not gone down 10 pants sizes but only pants 5 pants size because the only go 28-26 and so on it hurt me so bad that i started to cry.

Even though I knew she was wrong it still hurt and it made me feel like I did not accomplished anything and I felt like shit and wanted to just eat a lot again.

Sir told me no you will not either and I knew what would make me feel better was putting on a size 18 which made me feel a lot better and I knew she was wrong because I was a size 28.

So I have come very far because this would have have bothered me for days and I would have forgotten what I have accomplished.

On a happy note though while posting this I have started to go in subspace again because It just left after getting hurt so bad.

Tormented and fucked

Last night Sir went to be and I went back in the room also and got my wand out and glass dildo and started using it on me.While I was using my wand sir was getting some things out to get ready for today cause He was going to a BDSM picnic.
He got the paddles, canes, and cables the one I hate so much and I said you are just doing this to torment me and He said yep.

Well I was like good you will not be able to torment me tonight and he said I still have time and after he got that stuff together he did start tormenting me.

He would put my wand on high and fuck me with the glass dildo hard making me just want to cum and He said nope cant cum until Tuesday grrr fucking grrrr.

I am going out of my wand I so want to cum really bad and my clit and pussy has been aching to cum also and then after the 30 mins with the wand

I begged Sir to fuck me and He said I knew you were goign to be a good slut and ask me and so he teased me with his cock touching my pussy and I asked Sir can you please just thrust me really hard?

He rammed His cock hard into and I moaned out loud and He then fucked me hard and then came really hard into me and I still could not cum grrr again.

Then Sir went to bed and I stayed up a little while Since I had just got off work at 10pm.

Still Being Tormented

Well last night was amazing because after the girls went to sleep we went for a walk.

while we were walking Sir noticed that the top I was wearing is see through but I was wearing a shirt under it because I knew you could see my breast. I took that shirt off and Sir smiled at me because normally I just do not do those things outside. When I am very horny though I will do anything outside and not care.

While we were walking I asked,Sir I am your slut right? He said yes you are my slut and I smiled really big.

We then walked behind my gas station I work at, which know one can see us and Sir pressed me against the wall and started playing with my breast and also undid my shorts.
After that we switched and Sir was against the wall and He had me suck him and a couple of times he pushed his cock all the way into my mouth.

Then Sir told me to get on my knees and got down behind me and in just one thrust he was in me oh man it felt good. While he was fucking me he pulled my hair really tight and then came hard into my hot wet cunt.

After that we got some water and walked back home and when we got home I got tormented and used again.

For 20 mins Sir tormented me by using my wand and glass dildo and he kept fucking me hard with the glass dildo. My eyes got really big because I needed to come but knew I could not and was moaning.

While He was tormenting me he told me to close my eyes he just thought of something and got it was a cleaning brush that was not used yet for cleaning.
Sir started running it up and down my body while tormenting me with the dildo and wand.
He also put clothes pins on my nipples and breast and I was going out of my mind because I wanted to come so bad and it did feel amazing.

After Sir finished with the dildo and wand He then fucked me again very hard not giving me any rest and pounded hard into me and then came hard inside me.

After a few mins of cuddling we went of to sleep and I slept very well.

But I can say I am very horny and man I want to come but I will push on ward until Tuesday next week.

Well I got to go get ready for work now so I am done posting for now.

One Week

Well Sir has decided that I am not going to be able to come now for a week because I just feel that I need it and because he also wants to do this.

I will be his fuck toy for a week and whatever he wants I have to take it no matter what and I do not have a say in it.

I will be tormented everyday for the whole week and prolly going to have to use my wand everyday and glass dildo for 30 mins and now for a whole week I will have something to post and how much I am being tormented.

I guess you can say not coming for 3 days did not help much so now I have to go longer without cumming and I can not wear panties for a whole week either unless he says i can.