A little better

i am feeling a little better today which i am glad cause i got to go to work this morning at 6 am yuck. i surprised Sir this morning at around 4 am with my mouth on His cock and for the first time i did not want anything in return which i thought was  great.

Most of the time i am hoping if i help Do something really good for Him He might let me cum or do other things to me but today i was different i do not know why but i got off by just taking care of Him only not myself.

I did not think of me at all just wanted to please Him and show Him how much i love Him i think i did surprise Him in giving Him a blowjob and i even swallowed i had not done that for awhile evil grin. He came so hard and i was pleased to make Him happy i do like the feeling of him cumming in my mouth i am smiling right now just thinking about it.

Well got to go to work for awhile grrr but i will put on my happy face.

Still sick

i am now looking into other meds for me to help me i got congestion starting to go into my chest and it is hard to swallow cause i have mucus build up that i can’t seem to go down.

i asked Sir if He would help me take a shower cause this is reallying kicking me in the butt and He did help wash me and washed my hair for me. Sir also starting playing with me and after i begged Him a couple of times He did let me cum.

Then i asked Sir if i could get out of the shower so i could take care of Him since He let me cum He agreed. We got out of the shower and i then gave Him a really good blowjob for Him. I think He liked it a lot and i think He is a little worried about me also.

i am feeling worse

i am still not feeling well i am very tired i slept most of the day all i did was eat and went back to bed. i did get on the computer.

Last night Sir did let me cum but He still came first while having sex with me and then He said i could cum, but He knew i did not cum very hard so He used the wand on me and let me cum 3 more times i love Him for that.

Not feeling to well today

i am not feeling to well today i think i did not fight the cold very well i was suppose to do something with Sir but do not feel well enough to do it. Sir left me hanging in cumming cause He knows i come really hard sometimes after i can and He also likes it when i am needy.

He came to my work and got me worked up last night and said you can not cum until you get me to cum first today of course i pouted cause i love to cum and He knows it He of course had a evil grin on His face.

since i am not feeling i probably will not get to cum cause i am to sick to do what Sir asked me to do. i do have my finger crossed maybe Sir might be merciful but of course i am not going to get my hopes up lol.

Still feeling good today

i am still doing well today but i am very tired from work Sir got me a present today some silk sheets i love them cause  for one reason they are hot pink

i did sleep late again today cause i just know  i am fighting a cold i am trying very hard not to get sick so i have been resting when i can. i really do not have much to say tonight cause i just cant think of anything.

A lot happier

i am doing a lot better today i had a bad night sleep on Wed. i did not sleep at all cause for some reason and some how when i subspaced after sex and torment i crashed instead of gently calming down.

My mind kept running 100 miles a minute, so i tried to wake up Sir for more sex i thought He was awake and He moved my hand away from Him, so i felt rejected not understanding why i felt that way i cried for about 15 minutes.

i got up at 5am since i could not sleep at all and got ready for work i thought i was going to have to go to work without telling Sir my night and how i felt.

He did wake up and i said Sir can i talk to you and He said yes i started crying saying i did not sleep at all and i felt rejected by Him.

I told Him how i put my hand on Him twice and He shook His head and moved my hand away and i felt rejected.

He said i am so sorry baby i was not awake and you should have woken me up and i said but you had school today He said that does not matter wake me up if you need to talk i said ok Sir next time i will. i still had to go to work even with my motions being so messed up and no sleep so for about 3 hours i did not say anything.

Yesterday was better when i took a nap and i watched a movie with Sir and cuddled in His lap while watching the movie i love doing that. We went to bed after the movie i think i got i had about 13 hours sleep so i was so rested YAY. i am so happy and feeling a lot better today and work went well tonight also. i love Sir with all my heart and always will.

Sir did torment me yesterday by keeping me hanging and not giving me any sex i was so horny i did not sleep very well.

He did let me cum, but only after He put rope around my neck and pulled me down to give Him a blowjob while He did His homework.

I was able to use my wand while i read erotic stories which was the reason i was so horny last night. I pleaded for Him to have sex with me and He said well you did ask me to torment you , so this is the way i am going to torment you which of course is not what i wanted and He says you do not always get what you want.

Which He is right but i did not like it i complained about it all morning and He just laughed well this is the way i wanted to torment you grrrr. He did say it is not like you did not cum last night and i left you hanging without cumming.

Well last night Sir decided He needed to take a break from school work and on His break to torment me.

He used the cane on me softly at first and then when He could tell i was ready, He started swinging harder with the cane. Then He used the paddle and other things on me and even used my new toy – smart balls. i thought for sure i would not like them but i do.

He would not let me cum without permission and He used my wand (which is a yummy vibrator) with the smart balls inside me my mind went crazy.

After He was done i was able to take a nice nap before i had to work third shift the shift i really do not like.